The little I know

Here is what I know...this is 50 years in the making....

The people you love are never around long enough for you to know everything about them.

Children are little for what seems like an eternity but it is really a blip.

True wealth has nothing to do with money.

Being the better person will always make you feel better in the end.

Men can be dads, but only special men can be daddys. (I had one!)

Life isn't really what you make it, life is what you make it for others.

Whats so funny bout peaceloveandunderstanding??

One of life's cruel jokes

So, how cruel is this. Just when many women are sending their children off to college they are also experiencing perimenopause. How fun is that? You are emotional enough but then throw in the entire back of hormones going completely nutso and you end up with a normally competent woman crying, sobbing, being pathetic.

Well this is just terrific.

Almost makes you not want to get out of bed in the morning

What is next?? There apparently is some weird things on my and the man's credit reports. We each had a surprise. Mine was weird, but his was completely baffling. An old debt, that was paid off, for $55. Now the government loan people dont' want to give us funding for our kids. Really. Perfect credit and and old thing from 05, that was paid, and was $55? Debt to credit ration very good. All other things PERFECT. And this is the government? C'mon folks. How about looking at these mofo things?
On top of that my mortgage lender closed their doors on wednesday.......no one has bought them up. I asked the person who answered the phone - how do I pay september??? Um, well, no one knows. No one can say what my responsibility on this is either. My mortgage broker says "keep monitoring it". ARGGGHHHHHHH.......

watching whitey scramble

It has been a most amusing 6 months for me. Being a fairly white (well, maybe more a beige but I definitely would have picked the old crayon "flesh" if I was drawing a picture of myself) woman, it is alternately horrifying and facinating to watch whitey scramble. The "astroturf" compaigns (cause it is not grassroots, it is an artificially motivated movement) against healthcare specifically. How nice to see how easily whitey is motivated by the insurance companies. I bet big tobacco is quite jealous that they can't do the same thing. I'm wondering what big corporate giant is going to move next. The financial institutions probably didn't want the typical whitey to represent their interests. Sort of embarrasing don't you think. Do these people watch themselves on television and think they sound intelligent? Do they think that they don't sound like a bunch of inbred lunatics being manipulated for profits? Yikes.

Oh and one more thing....that guy on msnbc yesterday....or thursday....saying that cash for clunkers was a joke. That what is next cash for his golf clubs. Um, dumbass..... cash for clunkers works for people like me....with no money to change their gas guzzling, very not eco friendly car..... Sorry that you folks who already CAN afford a luxury car that is eco friendly can only relate it in terms of a leisure game. Golf...my god...thats rich. Put a leisure game, that is associated with people who have some sort of disposable income on the same level of a car, that will save the environment and money on gas for people who cannot afford one. Nice, dude....Really nice. Perhaps you can join the whitey brigade.

How about a little sugar for your tea?

Oh my oh my. Have you noticed the new scare tactics for those people of birther type mentality? Put their fingers in their ears and shout loudly "lalalalalalallalalala I can't hear you". Wow, ignorant or what? Now my friends THAT is the true definition of unpatriotic. How about we string these folks up on charges (well after we create kenyan birth certificates for them all. Apparently it is very easy to do on the internet. I've just created a couple for my kids hoping that I can get a scholarship for them both from some kenyan organization). Please...isn't there something called "polite society" and that one of the rules in polite society is that you can disagree but you must be civil and listen to each other's opinion. I guess of course unless you are a sour ignoramous who just knows that their guy didn't win so they don't want to play anymore. Did you ever notice the person that shouts over you or just yells and screams typically has no knowledge of the subject they are supposedly defending? On those rare occasions when they don't scream you down, try asking a few intelligent questions (or even a few not super intelligent but questions most common sense 3rd graders could answer). They can't answer. They can only spout propaganda. Brainwashed stuff. C'mon people.....be real Americans. Be real Patriots. I dare you.

I get annoyed sometimes. Yea, me. Here what is annoying me currently. You know how you tell someone that there is an issue, or you mentioned that something is irking you and then they totally ignore it cause they know that you have ADD and will probably forget it? I admit I am truly "look monkey look" and get distracted but it just shows a lack of respect to play that game. But that is life and not the only thing that is pissing me off (ooh have moved from annoyance to pissed....not a good sign!!) It just seems like I'm detecting a complete lack of effort from some people. People people people, put in a little time. I'd go into further explanation but its too much work......

More ravings

After two weeks of a personal pity party (to which many were invited but few, well no one participated) I have decided that the universe has won. I give! I surrender!! You Win UNIVERSE I HOPE YOU ARE FREAKIN HAPPY. Truly while the snacks and liquor at the PPP was quite tasty, the company definitely was not. I supppose I got too bored of being sad, blue, maudlin, boohooey (this is to a real word, look it up mate!), hopeless, at the end of my rope, at the beginning of the end, up a creek without a paddle, paddling up stream, so now I'm full of vim and vigor, shit and sugar, just jolly as roger (I have no idea what that means, I mean I know what being rogered means and it could make one jolly I suppose).

Anyway.....from here on out it is little ms. friggin sunshine. Happy happy joy joy

argh

menopause. Its a blast. The heartburn, the belching, the sweating. Every morning I wake up singing I feel pretty than immediately go pluck the new stray chin hairs which rapidly are becoming cheek hairs. and my god....the white pubic hairs. That is like a slap in the face of your sexuality. Yea mate, you may feel randy and such but we are going to remind you as soon as you drop your drawers that you would be better served baking muffins or brushing up on your canasta skills....dead sexy.

college

So we are about to enter the badger arena. Currently fully in tune with being demons, blue ones. Wow, about 89K to be demons and now just about 24k to be a badger. A bargain at any price!!!

Here is the one thing to never ever ever ever do when you had life decide that your well ordered savings plans and such were going to be needed for use on elderly parents, sick relatives and daily living expenses when one of your jobs tanked instead of for college like you planned. Don't and I repeat DON"T talk to any of your friends who are in Europe....or specifically Austria......where things like college are free.

Oh well...who needed to retire or have things anyhow! Think of how young it will keep me to work 60 hour weeks until I'm 85!!

Might not Kvetch but what the f

Might not be kvetching here tho there is a lot to kvetch about. Going to a wake today for a 16 year old boy. One of my daughters friends brothers. This is a hard one to explain/teach how to handle. The one way I have handled how to deal with crazy/horrid stuff in my life is to use it as a learning experience for my children. To know that you were teaching someone how to deal with life really put things in perspective for me. This time its all about how to be a friend when it is uncomfortable and not easy. How to listen to what they need and measure your words. Say less, listen more. Learn how to read the person for what they need. I'm proud of the girls that are going today to support their friend. When you are young you sometimes don't realize how the simple act of being there is sometimes the thing that speaks the loudest.

As it always is when things like this happen you look at the world a little differently. You cherish the small things, you realize how lucky you are. Its sad that this is a fleeting feeling and soon we'll all go back to underappreciating and taking for granted all the little things.

The one thing that I am very proud of my daughter for is that she is not making this her tragedy. Even tho she is very sad for her friend and feels horrible about it, she is not mooning about using this as her personal tragedy excuse. I positively hate when people have things like this happen and they use it as if it is their tragedy. I think it probably is hard for people to see things are not always all about them. I have acquantances that whenever someone dies, even if they were not close to them are devastating. Its all about them. Oh my god, the woman that used to babysit for my children 15 years ago, well her mother died. No I didn't know the mother, and no I haven't talked to her in 10 years but oh my god I can barely function as I'm so sad. Wha?????????

I guess I did kvetch, huh?